33rd Day_14thYear.mp3  (Audio Version of this written Report)

Blessed and Holy are You, O Lord my Help and my Deliverer!  With the Comfort that You give and the Strength that You give, we apply it to what You would have for us to do!  Amen!  I do ask for comfort to be given to me this day, O Lord, because I do not feel very good this morning.  All Power is Yours, O Lord, and I know that You have given me deliverance and comfort many times before, when I called on You. 

You have taught me to depend and to trust in You for all things, and for all of my needs!  You are worthy to be depended on, because You are Faithful to deliver those who call on You for help! 

Thank You for not giving me to call how I feel a sickness, or "morning sickness," because as You taught us, through Xmeah, the pregnancy is not a sickness.  At times I describe how I feel, saying, "I feel sick," but I know that I am not sick, it is just how I feel.  You gave us a way to call this, and I love it, saying that this is just "morning confirmations of pregnancy."  Thank You for the joy that You give to us, too!

I did consider more about how what I am going through will also be a light left behind me for other women who are pregnant to follow.  Thank You, Lord for using me to show forth Your Glory.  Let all things that are done be glory to You, and not to anything of the world or the world's teachings. 

I have given more consideration to what is called "unassisted childbirth."  That is what the world calls it, but I do not know what You would call it, O Lord.  Natural childbirth comes to mind, because it is a natural thing for a woman to give birth to a baby.  It is not a medical thing, or medical intervention does not need to be preformed. 

I was also meditating on how when I was young, and did not know any better, that I had our first child in a hospital.  It was nothing but the mercy of the Lord, that I left that place with all of my parts still intact, because they gave me a c-section.  53% of all women who go into the hospital, especially in this area, have c-sections.  There are some females who want to have  c-section, because they say they do not want to feel the pain of child birth, or other selfish reasons, like they do not want to be stretched out!  I have heard of all of these things.  And it came to my remembrance what the Lord taught us, through the Man of God, Xmeah ShaEla'ReEl, about this was part of the punishment that women have to bare, for the sin of Eve.  The Lord said that there will be pain in childbirth.  So we might as well, bare down with a few hours of pain, or wind up with an eternity of pain in Hell, trying to bypass something that the Lord said was to be!  Amen!  "For Adam was first formed, then Eve.  And Adam was not deceived, but the woman being deceived was in the transgression.  Notwithstanding she shall be saved in childbearing, if they continue in faith and charity and holiness with sobriety."  So what is a few hours of pain compared to an eternity?  I do not try anymore to stop the pain.  This is what God said would be.  He does not allow more to come upon us than we can bare, so why try to stop something that God ordained? 

With our first child, I did take pain medication, and I wondered why did I do that, because when I had gotten to the hospital I was already in the second stage of active labor and almost fully dilated!  The staff did not believe me that I was in labor because I was laughing and joking around.  But after many hours, and a constant persuasion to take medication by the nurses, I did give in and take some medication.  The labor stopped, and they lied and said the baby was in distress, and they cut me, to take him out!

Shortly after having the first child, I became pregnant again.  I was not in the Lord at the time, and I cried, because I thought about having to go back to the hospital again, and it was such a horrible ordeal!  They had told me that I would not be able to have a baby natural, and now that they cut me, they said that there were no doctors who would allow me to have a natural childbirth, and I would have to be cut open again!

Thank You, Lord for Xmeah.  Even though I was not a Christian at that time, but the Lord had me to get in touch with Xmeah, after the birth of our first child and I started to hear the Word of the Lord from his mouth, and be counseled.  He told me about getting a midwife.  I had never heard of such a thing as women having a baby at home, because I had been programmed that when you have a baby you go to the hospital.  This is what was fashionable and acceptable! 

But since the beginning of time, women have been able to birth babies without any medical assistance and most of the times, all on their own, without anyone else around them!   We had a dog once, who took refuge in our garage, one cold morning, and she gave birth to all of her puppies all by herself!  She did not have anyone there to tell her what to do or to help her.  She was a first time mother, and she had 4 healthy puppies all on her own.  She cleaned them and took good care of them.  I considered are we not higher than dogs?  So why do we need all of this stuff to give birth to a baby?

 With the second and third child, we hired a midwife, and had the children at home; and it was a wonderful experience!  What the doctor had said was a lie about me not being able to have children natural, because each child, was bigger, and heavier than the first one!  Since then I have encouraged pregnant women to have their babies in the comfort of their own homes, with the family around them, and see what a beautiful experience it is.  Out of all the women I have ever talked to, only one decided to have hers at home with a midwife.  I thank You, Lord for the one!  Amen!

But as for me, it has been 14 years since this body has had the experience of carrying a baby, and now, that I am in the Light, it is really different for me now, and it is something new to me!  You do address the concerns of our hearts, O Lord, and I do thank You that we can turn to You when we are concerned about something.  I have an uncle who delivered all of his children!  He is not a midwife, and has not had medical training, but this is something that God gave him to be able to do with his wife.  And all of their children are fine!

Last night I was given a dream that showed a white woman was being carried into a place because she was in labor and about to have a baby!  She had a big pillow between her legs, and when they set her down on the floor, the baby was already coming out!  I saw the baby as he slid out from between her legs when she removed the pillow!  She did not have anyone there to catch the baby, it just came out on its own!  I was surprised to see that she had delivered so fast!  And I think she was too!

We walked on past her. 

I do not know where we were, in this dream, but I was amazed at what I saw!

The next part of the dream showed that we were in Dallas, visiting my sister in law and her husband.  They lived in another house on a hill.  Their house was a mess and her kids were running everywhere, wild!  I have never seen their house dirty, but I knew because her husband required her to now work, that she did not have the time she had before to take care of the household duties and take care of the kids.  She had given birth to twin boys, and I was asking the two boys, who were now older, what was their names.   One said, "Damien," and the other introduced himself as "David."  Her oldest son, whose name is Greg, was not evident in the dream. 

We left from there, too, but this time we did not walk, we got into the van.  I had just had a baby the day before, but I appeared to be fine, with no soreness, of any kind, and was walking perfectly.  But in this dream, the baby I had was shown as a very white skinned girl!  I considered white pertaining to righteousness.  But I was surprised that it was a girl baby, because I thought that I was having a boy baby!

But in this dream, and just like in another one from before, it was the day after the baby was born and the baby had still not nursed yet!  I was ready to feed the baby, but the baby would not eat on the first day it was born.  When we were walking out, going to the van, the baby started to make sucking noises on my neck, and I knew that she was now hungry and ready to eat!  I was very happy and we got in the van to leave and I was getting ready to feed the baby.

There were thoughts in this dream, and my thoughts were, this would be the first time that the three older kids that we have, would have seen me feed the baby and how would they feel?  Would they be embarrassed?  Should I sit in the back and hide myself while I feed the baby?  But then it came to me that they were going to have to get used to it, and this is a natural thing, the way that a baby is supposed to be fed, so I can sit where I always sit, in the front and feed the baby there.

The baby had just latched on and started to nurse, when our oldest son, Joshua peeked over my shoulder and said, "Aw, how cute!" and when the little baby heard him, she stopped nursing and made a little baby noise at him as if to try to smile and talk to him.  I wanted the baby to eat, but the baby then became more interested in her older brother. 

My Lord, what does this mean?

That was the second dream of a baby not being fed until the second day after birth.  But in the first dream, I was not around the baby, and I was afraid that the baby would be sick, if it had not eaten!  This time I was available for the baby, but the baby would not eat because of a distraction. 

This was another thing that I had considered.  All the things that I know and do now, did not God teach me these things?  If the Lord starts us of in following Him in taking care of dead things, and we do what He says, He will also lead us in taking care of living things!  He can give me what I need to know when the baby comes!  Amen!

Thank You for the meditations, O Lord!

Also in a dream it was told to me, by the Man of God, "To whom much is forgiven..." and I thought he was going to say, "there is much love!"  But he finished the statement saying, "There is much forgotten!" 

I then understood how he was speaking about how God does not remember our sins when we have confessed them!  And also how our forgiveness by the Lord depends on how well have we been able to forgive others for their sins against us!  We forgive and we forget, even as the Lord forgives and forgets all of our sins!

When I was going to the Man of God's house, it was because I was driving, and I saw his van, that is painted with God's Word all over it.  I turned around to follow him, and then when I got to the street where he was, I was no longer riding in my van, but I was now riding a big tricycle!  When I saw what I was riding, not only did it surprise me, but it struck me as a little bit humorous.  But then I considered the meaning of a tricycle.  The number three came to mind.  And when I considered three, I considered the Holy Trinity; the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost. 

My Lord, what is the meaning to this?  Amen.